Moving Forward

This blog was for april fools.

As much as I don’t want to admit it, I haven’t been planning for the future as well as I should’ve been. I’ve been just going with the vibes, doing what feels right.

A lot has happened recently. Everyone has been committing to their schools, their majors, and the pathway for the rest of their life. Yet, when the time comes to make my decision, I don’t feel the confidence that I should, nor the assurance that what I’m doing is right.

The Major

I have enjoyed doing cs related projects and taking cs classes for so long, even the difficult ones. So it was hard to come to the conclusion that there is no future in cs. As much as you can argue that LLMS are just “token predictors” and “recycling content”, they eliminate 90% of cs jobs. And LLMs are the worst they will ever be right now.

To be employed as a cs major today, you need to not just be a great student from a great university. You need to be an excellent, employable, student with years of experience from a T5 cs school.

I just can’t see myself doing the 1000 application r/csMajors process and hope I get an internship.

What instead?

I sat down and thought about what’s next for me. I obviously want to do something related to the things I enjoy, I want to do something which can support me financially, something with a stable job market, and something AI could never do.

However, looking at everything else in the market, I couldn’t find a pivot which satisfies all 4 of my requirements. Nothing was good enough, which was incredibly irritating.

Breakdown

At this point, I was at my breaking point. I started rethinking even further into my life. I was questioning why I even wanted to go to college in the first place, to what, have a good job? What would I get from a good job, a soulless apartment where I live alone and have no chance of advancing in society?

All of my life, I’ve been following a plan fed to me by society, my parents, my teachers, and my friends. I want to do something different — no I’m not starting a company and dropshipping or something.

What do I want?

I looked through my entire life. What did I want to keep? Did I care about my hometown, my friends, my education, or my family. Obviously, but was it all necessary?

No.

I came up with a list of everything in my life. I sorted them into 4 categories.

Must Keep
Prefer to keep
Wouldn’t mind either way
Get rid of it

Looking at the list I had created, I realized that there was little I really wanted to keep from my current life. A fresh start with keeping contact with just my family would be more than enough.

Realization

I don’t need to go to college for what I want. I don’t need to stay in Maryland for what I want.

So I decided to move somewhere else.

I mapped out every country, and eliminated ones with problems. Which left me with the following map.

So I am moving to Myanmar.

Myanmar is a beautiful country, with a diverse population and is a great place for me to restart. While learning the Burmese language is going to be difficult, I have experience with similar languages and there a lot of English speakers there.

If my Visa application doesn’t go through, I’ve also planned on going to Tajikistan. Tajikistan is another beautiful country, with a culture I have never explored before and a whole new life waiting for me.

To those of you who decided to read all the way through, I thank you for going through this personal journey with me.